{"id":1891,"date":"2011-11-28T20:28:38","date_gmt":"2011-11-28T20:28:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.globalroutes.org\/?p=1891"},"modified":"2011-11-28T20:28:38","modified_gmt":"2011-11-28T20:28:38","slug":"full-feeling","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/globalroutes.org\/staging\/8011\/2011\/11\/28\/full-feeling\/","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;Full Feeling&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-size: x-small;\">\u00a0<\/span>As the bus drove away, these simple English words were all my host family could express through their overwhelming sobs, and they are still the words I hear during our regular fumbling Skype conversations. American English Translation of \u00a0\u201cFull Feeling\u201d = \u201cI am very sad. I miss you.\u201d Entering the small village of Belchawedi in Southern India, I felt empowered to know I would be helping a community through various service projects. However that empowerment felt like arrogance as I realized the true joy derived from creating relationships with incredibly compassionate, inspiring people. Trudging through language barriers, I was able to establish a connection so strong it erased my embarrassing and oftentimes offensive cultural mistakes, transcends borders and time zones, and allowed me to find so much comfort amidst so much disorientation that I had never felt more at ease with myself. In doing so, I made a fool out of myself in every way possible- crying at the perplexing gender roles, dancing the Macarena, and futilely attempting to explain who I was in an incomprehensible language. But it wasn\u2019t my academic or leadership accomplishments that could be translated, only the love, energy, and attitude I exuded could be.<\/p>\n<p>Months after arriving back in the states, every time I hear any member of my vast Indian family excitedly ask, \u201cOota ita?\u201d (Have you eaten dinner?), I am reminded of what truly matters. After a poorly executed math exam threatens college acceptance or a particularly disastrous fight with my dorm counselor about regulation room decorations, I Skype with my sister-in-law, brother, niece, or neighbor in our own special mixture of languages, sounds, and laughter that my roommates regularly mock. \u201cFull feeling\u201d has now become a personal mantra. It no longer represents the painful distance between myself and Belachawedi, but rather a token that every relationship and action should evoke the fullest extent of emotions. The fullest extent of who I am.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: x-small;\"><br \/><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0As the bus drove away, these simple English words were all my host family could express through their overwhelming sobs, and they are still the words I hear during our regular fumbling Skype conversations. American English Translation of \u00a0\u201cFull Feeling\u201d = \u201cI am very sad. 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